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Identity Poetics
Deborah Garrison turns the urban sophisticate's daily grind into funny, incisive verse.
By Elizabeth Manus
APRIL 13, 1998:
A WORKING GIRL CAN'T WIN AND OTHER POEMS, by Deborah Garrison. Random House,
65 pages, $15.
Might a poem like "Fight Song" be tailor-made for you at the end of a grim
day?
Sometimes you have to say it:
Fuck them all.
Yes fuck them all --
the artsy posers,
the office blowhards
and brown-nosers;
Fuck the type who gets the job done
and the type who stands on principle;
the down-to-earth and understated;
the overhyped and underrated;
. . .
which is to say fuck yourselfbr>
and the person you were: polite and mature,
a trooper for good. . . .
If you are a college-educated, clear-eyed female who works in a large city
(ideally with words and not numbers), it might indeed. That's the demographic
that poet Deborah Garrison belongs to, and it's the one that her first
collection, A Working Girl Can't Win, will likely win over. The poems
speak directly to her experience in work, in love, in friendship, and in sexual
passion, and for women who can identify with Garrison -- a strong wife, a
daughter cut off too soon from her father, a reader, a dreamer -- they speak
volumes. By turns wry and lyrical, they spring with perfect rhythm, yet
maintain a quiet elegance. And their levity means that they warrant no
particularly elevated state of mind as a precondition for reading. They are as
suitable to the subway car as to the sofa; they also make fine dinner-party
company. But regardless of where they are read, the best ones will pull readers
into Garrison's world at warp speed and keep them there for days.
It's a privileged sort of place -- imagine the world of the ideal New
Yorker reader, outfitted with books and country houses, matching shoes and
belts -- but the office still looms large. "Please Fire Me" makes a nice twin
set with "Fight Song":
. . . Here comes another alpha male --
a man's man, a dealmaker,
holds tanks of liquor,
charms them pantsless at lunch:
I've never been sicker.
Do I have to stare into his eyes
and sympathize? If I want my job
I do. Well I think I'm through
with the working world
through with warming eggs
and being Zenlike in my detachments
from all things Ego.
I'd like to go
somewhere else entirely,
and I don't mean
Europe.
Light verse, to be sure, but the poem reminds one that identity politics
(unfortunately) do not spring from complete fiction. Garrison connects with
today's working woman as well as the pros on Madison Avenue do. In "Worked
Late on a Tuesday Night," the characterizations of career girls as "haggard
beauties" and "vivid can-dos" may prickle with a note of damsel-in-
distressdom, yet they strike a sure chord. And the title poem has a real edge.
A string of prying, outrageous questions, it performs the curious form of
dissection that awaits so many ambitious women:
. . . Are her roots
rural, right-leaning? Is she Jewish,
self-hating? Past her sell-by date,
or still ovulating?
Will her husband talk?
Does he mind her success?
Does anyone know -- does he see
her undressed?
The theme of ambition, of desire, pulses throughout the collection, as if
Garrison is asking, How can intelligent women assert themselves firmly and
gracefully? And what is that worth at the end of the day?
In "Father R.I.P., Sums Me Up at Twenty-Three," the "answer to everything" is
"a slender/zero, a silent shrug," which is more a gesture of defiance than of
withdrawal. It shows up again in slightly different form in "Superior," in
which she performs the appropriate gestures for the "thinker-aloud" boss man
who interrupts her work:
She agreed, she agreed, she seconded his thesis,
and with each murmured yes her
certainty mounted:
she would never be one of them --
a Director, a Manager,
an Executive Thingy. She didn't have the ambition.
She was simply a pencil, scratching, pausing,
picking her way down an obscure page.
Ultimately it is the silent woman, her hunched posture his only potential clue
to her resistance, who ranks superior. Polemical sorts might argue that such
forms of gestural opposition affirm the experience of woman as a body (Virginia
Woolf's idea), but the image of woman (or poetess) as phallic pencil surely
undermines that.
Complementing the work poems are what might be called the love poems, in which
Garrison keeps holding fast to passion, despite -- or possibly because of --
her having married at 21. Her frank professions of lust are refreshing, if not
so deeply resonant. The speaker of "November on Her Way," for instance, is
"full of nerve,/have to have you." Wanting is not a whiny activity; here is a
woman who simply likes sex. Unfortunately, her ardor is often thwarted. It is
her husband who, "always the last to know/about [his] own passion," is less
interested in getting into bed. "Husband, Not at Home" hints at his retreat
from spousal duty, but there is celebration in his very absence: "she likes
him/almost best this way: away."
"A Kiss," which at times imitates a mashing session in rhythm and dialogue,
locates an embrace in memory. Recalling how a kiss "contained the wish/to be
toppled, to be on the floor . . . anywhere I might lie down,"
Garrison asks:
What?
That I was a woman admitting
there was a part of herself she didn't know?
There was a part of myself.
I didn't know.
An introduction,
then, to the woman I was like,
at least as long as you kissed me.
Now that's a long time,
at least a couple of women ago.
And in that final line, it is accretion that resonates more than loss. No so
with many of the love poems; a working girl, even a happily married one, often
finds that all her "fantasies/of seduction run up/against the rocks." The
friendship poems depict a more satiating brand of love.
One of the book's special features is a tribute to Frost (specifically, A
Boy's Will) in the form of witty descriptive notes in the table of contents
-- for example, underneath "I Answer Your Question with a Question" is Here
we go again (again). The homage would have worked better if the notes had
also accompanied the poems; as it is, one has to flip back and forth, which
mars the effect.
What we are left with by the end of the volume is a composite portrait of a
young woman with strong female friendships, a healthy libido, and a good job.
Garrison takes leave of us on Madison Avenue, futilely trying to hail a taxi
one rainy night. Frustrated and cold, even crying a little, she stands with her
gloveless hand in the air, today's lady liberty: wife, not at home.
Elizabeth Manus is editor of the PLS.
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